When you no longer feel the need to search then you will have found the spiritual connection that you were meant to have. I believe New Age spirituality can put us on a dangerous path because it ignores that there are rules for a reason. You might find former New Age star Steven Bancarz’s journey interesting.

https://medium.com/@happy_fate/steven-bancarz-from-new-age-to-jesus-4a6d20bfb3a0?source=friends_link&sk=0041f71191538ef92e723068389d527d